Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 10 Hiding behind a shield of anger when you own a good amount of self-hate is pretty easy. The anger that surrounds you prevents other people from getting close, preventing you from any potential love or joy. The shield makes sure that no good things can happen to you … Continue reading When Hate turns into Sabotage
Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 2 I am worthless. I just pretend to have a mental problem so I can finally be my true self, the lazy, crazy and pathetic person I am today. There is nothing wrong with me besides my own inability to live a normal life, my extreme weakness and worthlessness. … Continue reading Feelings Dictionary
This is a hard one to talk about, a difficult one, even for myself to understand. ADHD brains tend to be impulsive, they don't have control or schedules, they just do things without thinking, do whatever it is that comes to their minds. And this is true, also for me. But in the 27 years … Continue reading ADHD and control – The dangers that come from feeling out of control all the time
There are days I have complete control over my little ADHD devil, I get things done, my mind doesn't wonder, I am focussed and happy. But when I get tired at the end of these days, and I'm ready to go to bed, as soon as I lay down the not-so-little-anymore ADHD devil appears, my … Continue reading Going to sleep – The bad nights
I've talked about how my ADHD was not diagnosed until I was at University, and because of this, my childhood was filled with rejections, with not being accepted, with being punished for the way I was. Even today, when I look back I get angry, it might have been so much easier for me, so … Continue reading ADHD childhood struggles
When I came back from 2 weeks without my medication and my boyfriend was at the beginning of his week in Greece I got a little crazy. I felt things, I told myself to not feel them, then I couldn't not feel them so I started of thinking of ways to make sure I would … Continue reading ADHD sad struggle loop
Today I set myself a few goals. Get rest, clean the house and fix my bicycle. Especially cleaning the house is important because I know that once I'm in a clean and peaceful environment, my brain also becomes more relaxed, it slows down a little. But in the morning I found out: these things are … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 1
I feel like I am made up by 3 different people, all me, but all completely different, fighting over control over my brain. The first me is the me I like, the Happy-me, the person that finds joy in little things, has control over herself, gets things done when they need to be done and … Continue reading 3 times me
It has been a year, a normal year, a year in which I thought I finally mastered the art of having ADHD. I was going to a boring job every day, cooked proper dinner and lunch, spend at least 6 hours a week at the gym, cleaned my house (at least no dishes, trash or … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 0
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