I Must Too Much

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 1 It makes me angry that I could barely find the time to write today. The whole timing this past year of sickness has just been off. A year ago I had all the time to write and work on myself, and I believe I even was much better …

The Army of Chaos

Sometimes I just can not believe the people that are supposed to help me, the people that want me to get better and actually benefit from me getting better. I can not believe how many times I have to stand up for myself, explain myself, convince other people of what is good for me and …

It’s Always Darkest Just Before Dawn

Life knows good moments as well as extremely rough periods. Unfortunately many things are impossible to plan, for many things you rely on other people and disappointments occur much more often than we wish they would. We all have some really good things from time to time, but overall we are focussed on the things …

Period and Burnout

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 27 I used to be blessed with very minor periods. I believe no one could figure out when I used to have them, every month I was able to keep working and go to the gym, even getting punched in the belly during boxing wasn't a problem. Besides a …

Allowing Sadness means Learning to Laugh

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 18 I used to have a silent laugh. Whenever something funny would happen around me and everyone else would laugh out loud, I would remain with only a grim on my face, counting the seconds, or worst, minutes, till the fun would be over and I would be allowed …

Do my dreams tell me I feel guilt?

I believe that dreaming is important. I believe dreams are there to deal with the experiences in life, to process the thoughts we have on the things we encounter. I believe that dreams are made up by our true feelings, even the ones we hide from ourselves during the day. Dreams are extremely personal and …