Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 3 I struggle a lot with my feelings. I mostly prefer to hide all of them, pretend I don't have emotions and on the rare occasion my feelings are able to surface, I show just anger to myself and the world around me. For over a decade I choose … Continue reading Self-Conversation
My days are covered in tears. My pillows, blankets and clothes are wet. I feel like I'm dehydrated, waking up with the feeling of a hangover every morning without drinking any alcohol. I have been crying for 4 days now, and nothing can make it stop, I just continue sobbing like a leaky rain shower. … Continue reading Why do we cry?
I feel like shit. I can't stop crying, my heart can't slow down, I can't control the chaos and I can't figure out a way to brighten up the darkness that has taken over, completely. My boyfriend and I decided to start over again, from zero. To see each other less, so I can work … Continue reading Alone in the dark
I have always had a problem with my emotions, mostly with my sadness. Due to my ADHD and the impact it had on my life, I don't allow myself to feel sad, and I try to cover it up. Yesterday I completely fucked up and the sadness-replacing-anger took over destroying everything.
Death has always scared me, it has always make me feel really awkward. I had never been able to look at a dead body in a coffin. I never knew what to say to or how to behave around people that had lost someone, so I just avoided them. And I had never allowed myself … Continue reading ADHD and grieve – how not to do it.
I believe it is time for me to open up about the worst period of my life. The part I'm ashamed of, the part I have been hiding from myself and everyone around me. The years I have never been honest about, or actually, never been able to talk about. It is the period in … Continue reading ADHD induced puberty
I am getting more and more surprised about how simple things exhaust me these days. A quick walk to the supermarket, a room with more than 1 other person, a phone call with my mom, going for a shower... Everything exhausts me, every time I need to lay down to recover, regain some energy for … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 22
The unlucky number, for an unlucky day. I had been looking forward to this day for a week, today I would see a doctor and talk about what is happening to me, how extremely exhausted and emotional my life is now, how I can't do the things I want to do and don't recognize the … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 13
The complete numbness that has taken over my emotions and thoughts seems to effect my writing. I have so many thoughts in my head, things I want to write down but every sentence I create seems empty, not telling the story I want to tell. I started about 4 different posts, but they all seem … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 9
Yesterday I did not write, I wasn't able to. Once I stopped fighting my emotions and gave in to just being, I started crying, and this continued for about 7 hours. I did not know what I was crying about, and I also could not stop it, it just needed to happen, without a clear … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 8