There will never be a place for me on my boyfriend’s couch

DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 17 As a hypersensitive person I always considered myself to be good with other people. It is true that there are not many real friends around, due to the walls I have been hiding behind for years, but when it comes to making contact and getting to know a stranger …

The Effect Of A Mother’s High Standards (Read: standards that will just always be too high for you)

Illustration by Barbara Jenjaroentham - @barbsiegraphy I got through the previous decade of my life because I was the best. I have been the best student to my professor, the best grandchild to my grandparents, the best neighbour to the people that have lived close to me, the best costumer to my gym, the best …

I am the devil

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 1 In the next 30 days, I will go on a journey through my own mind. A journey that will focus on self-love and self-compassion. A journey that should increase the kindness I treat myself with. A journey on which I will learn to change my old habits of …

ADHD : Deviation, not Disorder

I am diagnosed with Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, ADHD. But every single letter that is used in the name for this this type of brain, makes me a little angry. After living with my ADHD devil for 27 years, I believe the name is completely wrong. Especially the last D of the name, the one that …

When I try to fit in

My mind works in a different way. Sometimes I feel like something went wrong in the production process, like someone connected the wrong wires, ADHD wires, and used the wrong materials and I ended up being completely different. ADHD wired. I feel like the world around me forces me to adjust to the normal, to …

ADHD and Emotional Rejection

One evening when I was about four years old, we were going to eat lasagna, my favorite dish back then. I helped my grandmother with the cooking and I spend 30 minutes staring at the over, waiting till my favorite meal would finally be ready to eat. Then, the oven beeped and my father opened …

Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 26

I started with high hopes for today. Although I'm distracted all day, by tears caused by the loss of my grandpa and joy of the memories of all the time we spend together, I also felt a bit relieved. I was finally able to talk and cry about it. I felt like I was finally …