When Therapy Ends

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 25  I broke down in the end of February but it wasn't until almost 2 months later that I found someone to help me with what I was going through. It took a long time to find a psychologist to help me, but from mid-April my therapy started. In …

Wired to Explore – Boredom and Dopamine

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 21 I always was someone who got bored very easily and very fast. The jobs I had while I was a student needed to change at least once a year, when school spend too much time on one topic, I would loose all my interest and stop going, and …

Self-Hate Turned me into a Monster

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 18 Yesterday's post touched a sensitive nerve in me. While I was writing about my returning laughter, I suddenly realized what I had been doing to myself, how I was the one that took away my own ability to lice for so many years. It hurt me to realize …

Who am I? How ADHD Affects Personality

Who am I? This question is one of the hardest for me to answer. I am not good at talking about myself, I have no clue how to describe the way or person I am. I might be introvert but mostly behave extrovert. I might seem very organized in what I do but inside the …

From Wire to Maze

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 11 I have explained how I feel trapped on a wire high in the sky, strung between the old and the new me. I've taken some successful steps on this wire, but coming close to loosing my balance a few times has created an anxiety that withholds me from …

Depression or Burnout?

I am trying to figure out what is wrong with me for about two months now. After seeing 4 different doctors, I have finally found the one that doesn't feel the need to send me to another one, a doctor that is actually willing to help me. Therapy started, however, my psychologist, as well as …

Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 26

I started with high hopes for today. Although I'm distracted all day, by tears caused by the loss of my grandpa and joy of the memories of all the time we spend together, I also felt a bit relieved. I was finally able to talk and cry about it. I felt like I was finally …