Money doesn’t replace Motherlove

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 19 The things we learn from our parents shape us for life, you will become the parent your parents where to you, and they were the parents their parents were to them, like a circle that repeats itself with each generation. You learn the meaning of a mother from …

The harm in being raised by a wallflower

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 12 My mother has always wanted for me to be normal, to blend into this world as if there is no me besides the whole of people in this world. I have known that she has been afraid of getting attention her whole life, almost as if she is …

The Effect Of A Mother’s High Standards (Read: standards that will just always be too high for you)

Illustration by Barbara Jenjaroentham - @barbsiegraphy I got through the previous decade of my life because I was the best. I have been the best student to my professor, the best grandchild to my grandparents, the best neighbour to the people that have lived close to me, the best costumer to my gym, the best …

You Don’t But Your Parents!

I recently started schema therapy, also called lifetrap therapy. This kind of therapy believes that the problems we encounter in our adult life, often originate in our childhood, in the early connection or relationship with our parents. The way our parents choose to connect with us, is what we get familiar with, it's what we …

My Next Step – Schema Therapy

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 29 My current therapy, as well as my 30 days of writing, are about to end. The past weeks I have learned how to love myself and how to love my ADHD devil again. I got a glimpse of what I can be like, an idea of how happiness …

Toxic Insecurities

My memories of my father are covered in pain. My whole life he has made me feel worthless, he has beaten me, he has brought me down and he never understood nor allowed the person I am or was. I have never been good enough for him and he took every chance to express this. …

My mother’s coloring book

My mother is getting bored because of the COVID-19 lockdown, she doesn't know what to do with her time. Often she tries to call me to complain about het empty days. I keep telling her to stop doing this, her nagging tires me, for a phone call with her I have to use all the …

ADHD childhood struggles

I've talked about how my ADHD was not diagnosed until I was at University, and because of this, my childhood was filled with rejections, with not being accepted, with being punished for the way I was. Even today, when I look back I get angry, it might have been so much easier for me, so …