30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 8 When was the last time I truly allowed myself to be taken over by my feelings? I guess I was about four years old, I had made lasagna with my grandparents who had left shortly after we put the food in the over to cook because my father … Continue reading I was allowed to cry over lasagna
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 6 There is one more thing I need to investigate before I will be able to start figuring out a way to change myself. Until now I have learned about how I deal with my emotions in relation to other people, how not only my mother but our society … Continue reading Crying is just a pathetic way to get attention and fear is only caused by the monster that is me
Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 24 I have been angry for many years, however, I have never been furious about anything that deserved real anger. I have never expressed true rage, an emotion that only recently started to surface, a new scary monster inside me. I am struggling with delayed legitimate anger since I … Continue reading Anger Breakdown – The Moment I Finally Saw Myself
My memories of my father are covered in pain. My whole life he has made me feel worthless, he has beaten me, he has brought me down and he never understood nor allowed the person I am or was. I have never been good enough for him and he took every chance to express this. … Continue reading Toxic Insecurities
My mother is getting bored because of the COVID-19 lockdown, she doesn't know what to do with her time. Often she tries to call me to complain about het empty days. I keep telling her to stop doing this, her nagging tires me, for a phone call with her I have to use all the … Continue reading My mother’s coloring book
50% to 75% of girls with ADHD are missed. This is an alarmingly high percentage, and unfortunately I was one of these unlucky girls. Often, when we try to imagine ADHD, we see a young boy, a little over-active bully that performs bad at school and can't sit still. Unfortunately this is not the only … Continue reading ADHD in girls – The complexity of this unknown condition
I am diagnosed with Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, ADHD. But every single letter that is used in the name for this this type of brain, makes me a little angry. After living with my ADHD devil for 27 years, I believe the name is completely wrong. Especially the last D of the name, the one that … Continue reading ADHD : Deviation, not Disorder
Whenever I start something that really challenges or interests me, there is no way I will do anything else until I have succeeded. From the moment I start, I no longer notice what is around me, I will loose any sense of time and I will remain focussed until I will be finished. No matter … Continue reading ADHD brains best feature – Hyperfocus
Imagine waking up on a different planet and walking into a room with 30 aliens. However, you don't know that these creature are aliens, you don't even know you're on a different planet. The creatures in the room look exactly like you, your bodies are exactly the same. You notice that the 30 creatures around … Continue reading ADHD makes me feel like an alien on earth
I am diagnosed with the combined ADHD type, the one that makes me impulsive and hyperactive and comes with a deficit of attention and a lot of distraction. But am I really hyperactive? My hyperfocus can make me sit still for hours and even when this ADHD feature is not activated I am not moving … Continue reading ADHD : Hyperarousal, not Hyperactivity
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