Loneliness

I just really wish I could be up there... Loneliness - Anna30DAYSADHD

Words have a meaning greater than their translation

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 9 It is very human to associate objects with certain emotions, to give something that seems very common a sentimental value that makes it priceless to you. We all own things that can never be replaced by anything else, things that seem without value but are worth everything for …

I am the shell that locked me up

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 3 Yesterday I finally came to the point of accepting that I have been avoiding my feelings, of understanding how I protect myself from feeling and of knowing that I have to start trying to change things for myself. I realized how I have lost my way in the …

Pain, Pride, Sadness and Anger

My only memories of safety from when I was young, are in my room, alone in the kitchen or in the garden. The little hammocks on the ceiling for my stuffed animals, my bunny circling around in the washing machine, or my imaginary friend Jack, who was always there for me when I had become …

Anger Breakdown – The Moment I Finally Saw Myself

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 24 I have been angry for many years, however, I have never been furious about anything that deserved real anger. I have never expressed true rage, an emotion that only recently started to surface, a new scary monster inside me. I am struggling with delayed legitimate anger since I …

Lack of emotional compassion

My therapy had started, focussing on self-compassion. I have to learn how to love myself, how to listen and how to be more compassionate and sweet with the person I am. The first exercise I have to complete is writing myself a letter, a letter in which I tell myself how the thing that I'm …

Lovebeat – The honest truth about love and ADHD

Love comes with many emotions and, at least for me, relationships have always proven to be the biggest struggle I encounter due to the ADHD devil that lives inside my brain. The phases I went through in my fight with the devil, are clearly reflecting in the way I behave in relationships as well as …

The importance of a cheerleader

Always look on the bright side of life. A happy song, written for the ending of a famous movie. A happy song with whistling, dancing and singing by a choir of men, waiting for their death on a cross. A song that become I believe even more famous than the movie it was written for, …

ADHD and Emotional Rejection

One evening when I was about four years old, we were going to eat lasagna, my favorite dish back then. I helped my grandmother with the cooking and I spend 30 minutes staring at the over, waiting till my favorite meal would finally be ready to eat. Then, the oven beeped and my father opened …

ADHD : Hyperarousal, not Hyperactivity

I am diagnosed with the combined ADHD type, the one that makes me impulsive and hyperactive and comes with a deficit of attention and a lot of distraction. But am I really hyperactive? My hyperfocus can make me sit still for hours and even when this ADHD feature is not activated I am not moving …