30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 14 Schema therapy is about healing the child within yourself, about bringing her (or him) back to life and help her change and grow. It is a kind of re-parenting therapy, in which you yourself, together with your psychologist rewrite the painful moments of your childhood, kind of showing … Continue reading Rewriting my truth
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 12 My mother has always wanted for me to be normal, to blend into this world as if there is no me besides the whole of people in this world. I have known that she has been afraid of getting attention her whole life, almost as if she is … Continue reading The harm in being raised by a wallflower
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 10 Until yesterday I have been struggling with my therapy. My psychologist wants me to relive my the traumatic events of my childhood, open up about the emotions I felt back then and heal by rewriting my past, providing my inner child the support and safety she needed but … Continue reading Disconnect to reconnect
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 7 My mother played a big part in the creation of my emotional deprivation. She taught me to be hard, to hide, to not accept my own feelings and to doubt myself about everything. My mother's lack of interest in me fucked with my ability to show emotions, however, … Continue reading The rage of the stranger that is my father
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 6 There is one more thing I need to investigate before I will be able to start figuring out a way to change myself. Until now I have learned about how I deal with my emotions in relation to other people, how not only my mother but our society … Continue reading Crying is just a pathetic way to get attention and fear is only caused by the monster that is me
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 5 On the rare occasion that I am overwhelmed by sadness, or I guess when sadness takes me by surprise, I run towards my bed, hide underneath my blanket and watch whatever movie pops-up on my phone first. Every time. But why? It seems that I have taught myself … Continue reading Tears are only allowed on a pillow
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 3 Yesterday I finally came to the point of accepting that I have been avoiding my feelings, of understanding how I protect myself from feeling and of knowing that I have to start trying to change things for myself. I realized how I have lost my way in the … Continue reading I am the shell that locked me up
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 2 What if there was more in this world than just ability and inability, what if we were all free to do what we feel is good for us? To do what we truly need. What if our world would allow us to put our own happiness or well-being … Continue reading I Am First
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 1 It makes me angry that I could barely find the time to write today. The whole timing this past year of sickness has just been off. A year ago I had all the time to write and work on myself, and I believe I even was much better … Continue reading I Must Too Much
30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 0 Mental health is about how we think feel and behave, it's about looking after ongoing wellness and happiness, about knowing yourself and making sure that your needs are met, being able to express your feelings and standing up for yourself, knowing what you can and can not do … Continue reading I Accept
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