Painting My Trauma – Safety

This is the first painting of a series in which I will try to visualize my trauma, my childhood pain, the loneliness and lack of warmth and love, the abuse and the rejection. My childhood wasn't fun, it wasn't fair. I had to grow up too soon, life got too hard too early and I …

It’s Always Darkest Just Before Dawn

Life knows good moments as well as extremely rough periods. Unfortunately many things are impossible to plan, for many things you rely on other people and disappointments occur much more often than we wish they would. We all have some really good things from time to time, but overall we are focussed on the things …

How to deal with the COVID-19 darkness

The global corona quarantine is effecting all of us. Our lives have changes radically. Not only are we bound to our homes, unable to see friends of family or visit the places that used to bring some fun into our days, the lockdown had changed much more. Health care, for example, is purely focussed on …

Alone in the dark

I feel like shit. I can't stop crying, my heart can't slow down, I can't control the chaos and I can't figure out a way to brighten up the darkness that has taken over, completely. My boyfriend and I decided to start over again, from zero. To see each other less, so I can work …