Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 10 Hiding behind a shield of anger when you own a good amount of self-hate is pretty easy. The anger that surrounds you prevents other people from getting close, preventing you from any potential love or joy. The shield makes sure that no good things can happen to you … Continue reading When Hate turns into Sabotage
When my weeks are too busy to handle, when there are too many things I have to think about and too my schedule is too full, I get on my bicycle and start cycling. A couple of years ago, I discovered the healing powers of cycling for me, the peace I feel when I get … Continue reading Shape your bike
One evening when I was about four years old, we were going to eat lasagna, my favorite dish back then. I helped my grandmother with the cooking and I spend 30 minutes staring at the over, waiting till my favorite meal would finally be ready to eat. Then, the oven beeped and my father opened … Continue reading ADHD and Emotional Rejection
My mind works in a different way. Sometimes I feel like something went wrong in the production process, like someone connected the wrong wires, ADHD wires, and used the wrong materials and I ended up being completely different. ADHD wired. I feel different and I work different and often this causes a lot of stress. … Continue reading When I allow the angel
Today I excelled. I started with few expectations, with a few goals for the day but I was able to do so much more. In a way I felt like my normal self again, finally capable of doing what I wanted myself to do. Until I was not. Halfway through the day I discovered the … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 18
This is a hard one to talk about, a difficult one, even for myself to understand. ADHD brains tend to be impulsive, they don't have control or schedules, they just do things without thinking, do whatever it is that comes to their minds. And this is true, also for me. But in the 27 years … Continue reading ADHD and control – The dangers that come from feeling out of control all the time
There are days I have complete control over my little ADHD devil, I get things done, my mind doesn't wonder, I am focussed and happy. But when I get tired at the end of these days, and I'm ready to go to bed, as soon as I lay down the not-so-little-anymore ADHD devil appears, my … Continue reading Going to sleep – The bad nights
My ADHD brain seems to intensify everything, all the input, all the things that happen around me seem to become too much in my brain. Not only do I lack filters to manage the input to my brain, my ADHD brain also seems to experience things much stronger than a neurotypical brain. I am hypersensitive, … Continue reading ADHD and hypersensitivity – The main symptoms
The state of complete semi-controlled chaos continues. I experience control over my thoughts, I can follow them, I know what they are about, but they keep moving too fast. Too many connections are made in my brain and I can't filter enough to not be surprised by everything that's in my surrounding, distracted by anything … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 4
While the last 2 days where all about looking for peace, taking things easy and listening to myself, today it was time to get back to the real life. Going to the office, socialize with colleagues and seeing my boyfriend after his week in Greece where on the agenda, and to be honest, I feel … Continue reading Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 3
30 DAYS ADHD 