The Army of Chaos

Sometimes I just can not believe the people that are supposed to help me, the people that want me to get better and actually benefit from me getting better. I can not believe how many times I have to stand up for myself, explain myself, convince other people of what is good for me and …

ADHD is Real, and So is Ritalin

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 22 I have a love-hate relationship with my medication. I don't like the way I feel when I take my daily dose of methylphenidate, however, on the days I forget to take my medication, I feel far from good as well. With every pill I'm giving away a part …

Craziness Is Human

I often think of myself as being weird. My ADHD devil makes me different from other people, he makes me deal with emotions in a different way, he makes me see pink elephants everywhere and he makes my thoughts go so fast that I loose all control, linking things together that don't have anything in …

Speaking with a fountain pen

I have always been a terrible talker, I can just never stick to one topic, especially when the conversations I'm in are about feelings. I was never able to express myself, but more importantly, I did not listen to myself until I started writing and finally started to connect to my true self and I finally became honest to me and the people around me.

ADHD folderstructure

My mind works in a different way. Sometimes I feel like something went wrong in the production process, like someone connected the wrong wires, ADHD wires, and used the wrong materials and I ended up being completely different. ADHD wired. I am extremely bad at organizing, even the stuff that's inside my brain. It seems …

When ADHD takes over my body

Attention-Deficit (Hyperactivity) Disorder, or ADHD, is known as a disorder, or a difference or deviation in my opinion, of the brain. ADHD brains are wired in a different way, different from neurotypical brains which causes differences in experience, attention and so much more. ADHD brains tend to be extremely crowded, they are constantly filled with …

Everyday ADHD household hacks #2 – The ones that really don’t make things better but I can not stop doing

Over the past few years I learned a lot about myself, about the effect of my ADHD and how to make little things a little easier when it comes to everyday tasks. I discovered some useful methods when it comes to my housewife qualities but unfortunately I also developed some habits that seem to make …

Going to sleep – The bad nights

There are days I have complete control over my little ADHD devil, I get things done, my mind doesn't wonder, I am focussed and happy. But when I get tired at the end of these days, and I'm ready to go to bed, as soon as I lay down the not-so-little-anymore ADHD devil appears, my …

Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 5 – And how the pharmaceutical industry makes things even harder

This morning before work, I had to go to the pharmacy to pick up my ADHD medication for the next 6 weeks. I think this is part of a secret ADHD therapy, making us do this so often. There are many other medications that they will give you for 3, 6 or even 12 months …

Fighting the ADHD devil – DAY 4

The state of complete semi-controlled chaos continues. I experience control over my thoughts, I can follow them, I know what they are about, but they keep moving too fast. Too many connections are made in my brain and I can't filter enough to not be surprised by everything that's in my surrounding, distracted by anything …