Suddenly I was free of everything my mother made me believe I was

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 20 I have been trying to write this 20th day for weeks now, day after day I get my pen and notebook to get stuck somewhere in the first paragraph. Sixteen pages with no more than five lines are before this one, trying to describe an event that truly … Continue reading Suddenly I was free of everything my mother made me believe I was

I Must Too Much

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 1 It makes me angry that I could barely find the time to write today. The whole timing this past year of sickness has just been off. A year ago I had all the time to write and work on myself, and I believe I even was much better … Continue reading I Must Too Much

How my Childhood Trauma Affects my Relationships

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 28 I have a problem with relationships, not just the romantic ones, but all of them. When I was younger I noticed how I could never behave properly in any kind of relationship, getting angry without reason, demanding the impossible or just abandon everyone when things got too complicated. … Continue reading How my Childhood Trauma Affects my Relationships

Sadness Dysregulation

I have always had a problem with my emotions, mostly with my sadness. Due to my ADHD and the impact it had on my life, I don't allow myself to feel sad, and I try to cover it up. Yesterday I completely fucked up and the sadness-replacing-anger took over destroying everything.