How my Childhood Trauma Affects my Relationships

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 28 I have a problem with relationships, not just the romantic ones, but all of them. When I was younger I noticed how I could never behave properly in any kind of relationship, getting angry without reason, demanding the impossible or just abandon everyone when things got too complicated. …

Anger Breakdown – The Moment I Finally Saw Myself

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 24 I have been angry for many years, however, I have never been furious about anything that deserved real anger. I have never expressed true rage, an emotion that only recently started to surface, a new scary monster inside me. I am struggling with delayed legitimate anger since I …

Legitimate Anger Delay – A New Monster

Loving the ADHD devil - DAY 23 My whole life I spend hiding behind a shield of anger, turning every weakness, emotion, critique or fail into an expression of hate. I used to feel angry about everything and everyone, however, this anger was never true, it was my way to keep everything at a safe …

When Everything is Fucked you can still Be Good

The last book I managed to read is "Everything is Fucked. A book about Hope." written by famous blogger and writer Mark Manson. The book describes the need to detach ourselves from the abundant materialistic resources present in our modern world since they will never be able to provide us with the real happiness we're …

Self-Made Me

When I look at my sister, at the way she behaves, the way she does things, the way she talks and her opinion, I recognize my parents. The way she cleans her house, the way she thinks about the corona crises, the way she talks to my grandma... a lot of how my sister is, …

Toxic Insecurities

My memories of my father are covered in pain. My whole life he has made me feel worthless, he has beaten me, he has brought me down and he never understood nor allowed the person I am or was. I have never been good enough for him and he took every chance to express this. …

ADHD and insecurity

People that don't know me that well see me as a person that is confident, strong and in control of her life, but when I'm at home, the real me comes out, I see a person that is the complete opposite. I wear a mask, a non ADHD mask, but when this comes off, the …

ADHD childhood struggles

I've talked about how my ADHD was not diagnosed until I was at University, and because of this, my childhood was filled with rejections, with not being accepted, with being punished for the way I was. Even today, when I look back I get angry, it might have been so much easier for me, so …