I was allowed to cry over lasagna

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 8 When was the last time I truly allowed myself to be taken over by my feelings? I guess I was about four years old, I had made lasagna with my grandparents who had left shortly after we put the food in the over to cook because my father … Continue reading I was allowed to cry over lasagna

The rage of the stranger that is my father

30 DAYS OF FEELING - DAY 7 My mother played a big part in the creation of my emotional deprivation. She taught me to be hard, to hide, to not accept my own feelings and to doubt myself about everything. My mother's lack of interest in me fucked with my ability to show emotions, however, … Continue reading The rage of the stranger that is my father

There is No Escape, No Reason, No End – Continuity of Mild Abuse Causing Major Trauma

When we usually think about abuse, we think about the big things. A stepfather that can not keep his hands to himself, a mother covered in bruises, a skinny child in dirty clothes, bones that break too often, blood stained underwear, a black eye... Real trauma-causing abuse is often considered sexual or physical, big and … Continue reading There is No Escape, No Reason, No End – Continuity of Mild Abuse Causing Major Trauma