Who am I? This question is one of the hardest for me to answer. I am not good at talking about myself, I have no clue how to describe the way or person I am. I might be introvert but mostly behave extrovert. I might seem very organized in what I do but inside the … Continue reading Who am I? How ADHD Affects Personality
My memories of my father are covered in pain. My whole life he has made me feel worthless, he has beaten me, he has brought me down and he never understood nor allowed the person I am or was. I have never been good enough for him and he took every chance to express this. … Continue reading Toxic Insecurities
The thing I hate most about myself, is that I smoke. For 12 years now I walk around smelling disgusting, depending on these stupid sticks I just can not seem to live without. In a way, I am a terrible smoker, I hate the smell and I can not stand to be in a room … Continue reading Smoking Guilt
My therapy has started two weeks ago. I have homework, books to read, courses to follow and things to try during my days. My therapy is mostly focussed on self-compassion and burn-out. I am supposed to be more kind to myself, do things I enjoy doing while reading about how to succeed in this. Two … Continue reading Do Less, Be Better
I feel like I want to scream. Every time I see the date or the time, every night I go to sleep and every morning I wake up I want to scream as hard as I can, for as long as my lungs will allow me. The need of screaming is getting stronger as the … Continue reading Screaming at Corona
I am trying to figure out what is wrong with me for about two months now. After seeing 4 different doctors, I have finally found the one that doesn't feel the need to send me to another one, a doctor that is actually willing to help me. Therapy started, however, my psychologist, as well as … Continue reading Depression or Burnout?
My mother is getting bored because of the COVID-19 lockdown, she doesn't know what to do with her time. Often she tries to call me to complain about het empty days. I keep telling her to stop doing this, her nagging tires me, for a phone call with her I have to use all the … Continue reading My mother’s coloring book
The global corona quarantine is effecting all of us. Our lives have changes radically. Not only are we bound to our homes, unable to see friends of family or visit the places that used to bring some fun into our days, the lockdown had changed much more. Health care, for example, is purely focussed on … Continue reading How to deal with the COVID-19 darkness
I never considered myself to be a Dutchie, but I must admit I am one. I am blond, pretty pale and once a year I even eat stamppot. I did not really get the tallness, nor the ability to eat cheese and drink milk that come with being Dutch. I never felt the need to … Continue reading Stranger in my own country
I have always been a terrible talker, I can just never stick to one topic, especially when the conversations I'm in are about feelings. I was never able to express myself, but more importantly, I did not listen to myself until I started writing and finally started to connect to my true self and I finally became honest to me and the people around me.
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