Always look on the bright side of life. A happy song, written for the ending of a famous movie. A happy song with whistling, dancing and singing by a choir of men, waiting for their death on a cross. A song that become I believe even more famous than the movie it was written for, … Continue reading The importance of a cheerleader
Every day I wake up, I know that ADHD will be waking up with me. There has never been a day that my devil and angel allowed me to do it by myself, not one day they have decided to take the day off and stay asleep till the next day, although they quite often … Continue reading Enjoy the little things and laugh about the crazy
Whenever I start something that really challenges or interests me, there is no way I will do anything else until I have succeeded. From the moment I start, I no longer notice what is around me, I will loose any sense of time and I will remain focussed until I will be finished. No matter … Continue reading ADHD brains best feature – Hyperfocus
The good things that come with ADHD
I can write a lot about the struggles I’m experiencing in my life, the effect of the little ADHD devil taking over my brain and making everything feel like an obstacle run, a very hard one. But I should also focus on the part of me that I like, the little ADHD angle maybe, that makes me a person that I love, I can laugh about, a person that enjoys herself and the world around her. And no matter how much I’m controlled by the ADHD devil, this little angel is also there. It is very important to keep reminding myself that there are also a lot of benefits, that part of the person I love being is because of my ADHD, because without it I would have definitely been a completely different person, in both my professional and my social life. If I keep reminding myself of all the good things the ADHD angle has given me, it becomes a little easier to live with the bad things, and trust me, there are many things I have gained from my ADHD.
Almost two and a half years ago I found myself in the most difficult place I have ever been, alone at home, going crazy because of my own thoughts, unable to function in the life I had made for myself. I described it as being in a deep, scary and extremely black hole. Life was … Continue reading Bye!
Life knows good moments as well as extremely rough periods. Unfortunately many things are impossible to plan, for many things you rely on other people and disappointments occur much more often than we wish they would. We all have some really good things from time to time, but overall we are focussed on the things … Continue reading It’s Always Darkest Just Before Dawn
The last book I managed to read is “Everything is Fucked. A book about Hope.” written by famous blogger and writer Mark Manson. The book describes the need to detach ourselves from the abundant materialistic resources present in our modern world since they will never be able to provide us with the real happiness we’re … Continue reading When Everything is Fucked you can still Be Good
I often think of myself as being weird. My ADHD devil makes me different from other people, he makes me deal with emotions in a different way, he makes me see pink elephants everywhere and he makes my thoughts go so fast that I loose all control, linking things together that don’t have anything in … Continue reading Craziness Is Human
When I look at my sister, at the way she behaves, the way she does things, the way she talks and her opinion, I recognize my parents. The way she cleans her house, the way she thinks about the corona crises, the way she talks to my grandma… a lot of how my sister is, … Continue reading Self-Made Me
I have a great relationship with my boyfriend. We understand and support each other and we can be completely open to each other. To be honest, I never really believed in love and relationships, but the more I got to know my boyfriend, the more I had to start admitting there might be something like … Continue reading COVID-19 and my relationship
I believe that dreaming is important. I believe dreams are there to deal with the experiences in life, to process the thoughts we have on the things we encounter. I believe that dreams are made up by our true feelings, even the ones we hide from ourselves during the day. Dreams are extremely personal and … Continue reading Do my dreams tell me I feel guilt?
I started dreaming again, very clear dreams that seem to be extremely real. I believe this means I’m getting closer to myself, closer to the person I once was. I wrote about my dreaming super-powers before, about how loosing my ability to enter the hidden world of my imagination and missing out on the amazing … Continue reading I never want to loose any part of me
When my weeks are too busy to handle, when there are too many things I have to think about and too my schedule is too full, I get on my bicycle and start cycling. A couple of years ago, I discovered the healing powers of cycling for me, the peace I feel when I get … Continue reading Shape your bike
Love comes with many emotions and, at least for me, relationships have always proven to be the biggest struggle I encounter due to the ADHD devil that lives inside my brain. The phases I went through in my fight with the devil, are clearly reflecting in the way I behave in relationships as well as … Continue reading Lovebeat – The honest truth about love and ADHD
Since the invention of wearable music devices, there has not been a single occasion of me leaving my room or later my house, without any headphones to cover my ears. I have owned over 100 headphones, connected to whatever device was available at that time. I went from walkman to discman, to multiple mp3 players … Continue reading Headphones love – How music can ease ADHD symptoms
Today, I can not stop thinking about the day this writing journey started for me, the day I started the expedition through my own mind by writing down the first words that described what was going on inside there. My first post, Little Joy was where it all started for me. Originally a text I … Continue reading Little Joy – The start
The global COVID-19 quarantine continues while the sun is getting brighter each day. The Netherlands are blessed with the most beautiful spring in history while life outside must remain limited, preferably even avoided. A difficult contradiction, that seems to effect a lot of people, making them less careful about the corona virus that is spreading … Continue reading A socially closer spring
Motivation is a big issue for me. There are so many things I have to do that just not seem interesting enough for my ADHD devil and without his interest it is impossible for me to do anything. It seems like he is hiding my start-buttons, making sure I wont do anything he doesn’t like. … Continue reading ADHD and getting things done – Tips to stop procrastinating
Until I met my current boyfriend I have always been alone. Off course there have always been guys in my life, I do have needs, but I never let anyone close. I never opened up, I have never had a relationship until this amazing guy entered my life and slowly conquered his place, slowly made … Continue reading How love helps me to fight the ADHD devil
Everyday ADHD household hacks #2 – The ones that really don’t make things better but I can not stop doing
Over the past few years I learned a lot about myself, about the effect of my ADHD and how to make little things a little easier when it comes to everyday tasks. I discovered some useful methods when it comes to my housewife qualities but unfortunately I also developed some habits that seem to make … Continue reading Everyday ADHD household hacks #2 – The ones that really don’t make things better but I can not stop doing
I want to talk about my bunny, this fluffy little guy, roaming around in my apartment, making life so much better, making the fight with my ADHD devil so much easier. He is always happy, always with me and always able to make me feel better when I’m down. He has been a big part … Continue reading Fluffy little ball of joy
When I wake up an the sun is bright enough to create a little bit of light through my extremely darkening curtains I jump out of bed and open the windows. I feel happy and full of energy, just by this tiny bit of light in my bedroom, the knowledge that there will be sun … Continue reading Those sunny days
When I’m completely down and lost, when ADHD has taken over my brain or when everything just seems utterly fucked, I have to remember the good things about myself. I am an amazing person and even though I get lost a little more often than a neurotypical person, and maybe even a little further, I … Continue reading My ADHD Super-Powers
Over the past few years I learned a lot about myself, about the effect of my ADHD and how to make little things a little easier when it comes to everyday tasks. Like how I always put music on when I go for a shower, or use color coding during my work, I also came … Continue reading Everyday ADHD household hacks #1
I was googling about having a relationship while having ADHD. I noticed that for me, once I finally started a relationship after 7 months of dating, it started making me insecure, overthinking, demanding, and slowly I was becoming the person that I fought hard to not be anymore. But most of the google search result … Continue reading Hyperfocus on a relationship?
Since I know I have ADHD and the more I read about it and analyze it, I start understanding myself little by little. I very often read something or analyze patterns in myself and then I think, “this is why I’m always like this! ” and knowing this makes it a little easier to deal … Continue reading Little joy